Believing in Abundance

Today is the first day we go out to officially “sell” MomsOutLoud.com. What that means is I have a meeting with a potential advertiser, and instead of only getting feedback on my media kit (I did tell you all that I really like feedback, right?!), I am taking a contract and am going to attempt to close the sale. I am going to try to refrain from begging, but my fragile ego may not let me walk out of there without a signature, so I can’t be totally responsible for my actions.

I have been repeating this phrase – “Believe in Abundance” – over and over to myself all weekend in anticipation of this week.

“Believe in Abundance” has actually been a fairly constant refrain in my head and my heart since I decided to leave corporate America in January of this year. Around then, I told a contact, who is now a friend, that I was considering leaving to start my own business, and she told me: “Sometimes you just have to close your eyes and believe in abundance.” She still doesn’t know (until now – because hopefully she’s reading this blog!) how much those words resonated with me and how central they have been to keeping my faith in what I’m trying to achieve.

The refrain has helped me get through some overwhelming points on this entrepreneurial journey. It sits in my head, kind of like white noise, a soft buzz that surrounds everything I do daily, coming forward at unexpected times to give me a nudge when I don’t even know I need it. It became pretty loud when I was considering taking an attractive-in-all-other-situations, part-time job working for a wonderful person and friend at a former employer whom I still hold in the highest regard, and helped me make the decision to focus on MomsOutLoud.com fulltime. It hit rock-concert decibel levels when, two months after I became a full-fledged entrepreneur, my husband resigned his own corporate job for various reasons, leaving us with no steady income in the family.

The remarkable thing about me recently living my life following this principle is that it is not my normal tendency. I am a worrier by genetics initially, and by years of practice now. When Jim first met me, I remember asking him when we were faced with any decision: “What happens if everything goes wrong?” To this, my wonderfully understanding husband would always reply:

“What happens if everything goes right?”

So as I am now pursuing something I want so much I can taste it, I am choosing to believe that everything IS going to go right, that there WILL be abundance. I don’t know how much this belief will sustain me on the road ahead; I don’t know how much I will need it to sustain me. But, I choose to believe that, like the water on the flowers above, if I keep my faith in what I’m trying to achieve, MomsOutLoud will blossom abundantly.